A long-due love letter!

I've been postponing this, always uncertain when our fury would take over again and shred it all! But I believe, I have been looking at it the wrong way - It's not Fight-Love-Fight story but a Love-Fight-Love one! Anyways, you must know this unless it becomes a tragedy from an action drama.

It wasn't the love at first sight, but you sure aroused my curiosity with your long hair and inquisitive eyes. It's been more than eight years and to be dead honest, it feels I have been with eight different versions of you. But all these versions have one thing in common - they all keep my head befuddled and my heart bewitched! I keep trying to reason with them, and they keep escorting me to a life beyond reason. Only you could make irrationality look so attractive, and reason so bitter!

My brain cells have debated over my feelings for you for years, to an extent of being extinct by over-heating and short-circuit. Apparently, whatever annoys me about you also causes my undefined infatuation towards you! Classic, isn't it! So, my arguments against you during our tussles double up as my statements of love, with a little change in tone and expressions. I love it that you're not limited by social conventions, and boundaries ; yet I always pick up a fight when you get late because you got stalled by a thirsty dog or a talkative old man or a random shop which caught your fancy. What can I say - I'm not completely infected by your charm. I still get carried away cheap mundane reality!

Our relationship is light years away from being perfect or eternal or star-studded, but it fills my entire canvas. Nothing makes me truly happy, nor does it make me raging mad, unless you're not in it. You stimulate emotions in me that I never knew existed - all shades ranging from neuroticism to pacifism. And though days without you are peaceful on my nerves, they're plain lifeless to me.

So, this is my confession letter, a long-due love letter to the man whom I have inexplicably and ceaselessly loved, relentlessly criticized but genuinely coveted, recklessly taken for granted though secretly revered!